NTÉ, contributor

Hi
It is okay to feel things 
It is okay to cry
Everything will be all right 
Though I don’t really know how or why 
My thoughts encapsulate my soul
My heart is buried underground
Beating a patient rhythm
Thumping through the Earth 

Confusion overwhelms and surrounds me
Destruction and decay seem close at hand 
Tricky things 
These feelings are 
They’re from what I do not know 
If they contend 

Patience feels abnormal 
In my constant waiting skin 

Knowing makes me weary 
Fearing feels a sin

Spiral upon spiral I walked about 
Circled upon circle with no way out 

A labyrinth is a single path 
There is no one true choice 
Methods are few 
Practices are many 
Ending the same 
Why then do we scurry? 

Deep intense thoughts 
Crackle within my soul 
Feeling like I’m going backwards 
Feeling as if I’ve lost control 

Feigning focus 
Fainting Pride 
Feeling fear 
Nowhere to hide 

Confusion flooding 
Due to outside perception 
No feelings truly 
A clinging deception 

A painted picture 
Finely organized rows
The simple story 
Yet somehow 
It blows 

I cling to memories 
That don’t feel mine 
I cling to times 
I cannot align 

It is not here 
It is not real 
I doubt myself 
I doubt how I feel 

A manic mission 
A simple place 
A newfound passion 
A new escape 

Are you lonely? 
Let me be your friend 
And how I feel
On you, it shall depend